weekend summary 04-13-08

What a weekend. Rudy had another siezure, Saturday. Not terrible, but still concerning. He is scheduled for a vet apt. Monday afternoon.

Then, as Rick and I were about to leave to meet his manager and wife, Kendra ran out of her room and told her dad that Kelly might be having a hard time breathing. She wasn't sure if Kelly was joking or not. Rick said, "Ya, right, Kendra." They do kid around.... I decided to take her seriously, though, and ran into her room. I credit that to my recently taken First Aid class. It wasn't a joke. Kell Bell was struggling. She has asthma and didn't have her meds. I helped her use Chris' inhaler, and then she was fine. Yikes, 10 min. later and we would have been gone for the evening. I asked Kendra what she would have done, and she replied, "I don't know." Big Yikes there, too. I need to schedule her for a First Aid class.

OK., so Rick and I leave to meet at Marguarita's to meet Claire and Harold. We had a good time and off we go to see Larry the Cable Guy. He is a comedian. The place was totally packed.....masses of people! This guy played Mater on Cars. The show had some really funny parts, But, was not the place for me. Too dirty. So, Rick and I left with mixed feelings. We were in a funky position. This is the boss and his wife. He spent around $300 which was SO nice. I tried to be upbeat and play on the positive, but no one really said much about the show. Strange.

As people were leaving the auditorium, I thought, "I probably don't know one person in this entire place." That is unusual, because Rick and I are generally at a Christian concert when we attend a public center, and oftentimes we recognize people. This was definately NOT the place where one would want to claim to follow Jesus.

Early this morning, I took Kelly home. I wish Rick would have helped. He had gone to Tim Horton's to work on his Sunday school lesson.

I was also scheduled to play for church this morning. I just felt lousy driving there. Going to the Colossae the night before made me feel unhappy about worship today. I told the Lord about it and settled accounts right there. No wonder Sunday Christians don't enjoy church. Too much to feel crumby about. Being at the Colassae for that show was no place for me, but that stuck out like a sore thumb. I wonder what I don't notice in my life. Sort of like stinky garbage. When you're in the house long enough, you don't smell it.

I talked to Richard, the church kitchen guy about using the church's round tables for Kendra's recital. Uh Oh, he reassured me the church only has four. Sigh. I was totally upbeat about it on the outside, but inside, dissappointed. He's a good guy, but definately sees the cup half-empty. Too much time with that is toxic for me. I can shoot the breeze, but would have a hard time working on a project with him at church.

Late this afternoon, I picked up Kendra from a birthday party. She had fun, but learned Justin is a "player". He has told Kendra he likes her, rumor is, though, he likes another girl at church, but was snuggling with a girl he tells everyone he does not like. Too many hormones rummaging about. I'm glad Kendra has never been interested in him, but she is disappointed that he cannot be trusted. I am, too. ....However, perspective does say that relationships can cloud many a minds.

After the party, I was supposed to take two girls to meet one of their mothers at a store, who would then take them to her home....gas saving measure for her. Anyway, I waited a while after party hours for the kids to wrap up, then there was confusion over whether one really wanted to go. Many minutes later, a decision was made, then Kendra asked me to give a ride to another friend of hers. I assumed when he said he lived across from the town hall, he meant Lewiston or Auburn. NOT. Lesson learned. I was taking the girls to Minot Ave. and discovered he lives in TURNER. Perspective. God has redirected my path and I need to listen to Him and serve. Human side,,,,, "that is way out of my way in the opposite direction. I WANT TO GO HOME!" After much mental tussling, I think the spirit-man won. It was a tough one, though. Sometimes I am just not with it.... and sometimes I feel a little taken advantage of. However, I am older, so really need to take responsibility for what I do, etc.

Tomorrow, co-op. Much of it is good, but I'm feeling too pressured to go, go, go. I can use a vacation. This weekend I have felt resentment about not doing what I want to do. Maybe that's ok, maybe not. It's late, so I'll have to think about this later.

Well, now I know why I wanted to snack tonight. Eating can be a good way of forgetting.... But it is also a good way to move up in pants sizes. Alas, I said, "no." Maybe this blog is cathartic.

One day at a time. God is good and is working in me to change the inside attitudes which will help the outside life. Amen.